My life has been a long series of todays with no tomorrows in sight. As you would expect, my childhood was filled with the here and now. I never gave a thought to the consequences of my choices. That’s what parents are for. As a preteen struggling with depression, I made the decision to take my own life on my eighteenth birthday. I, in effect, took tomorrow away and lived my today knowing that one day soon – tomorrow wouldn’t come. God had other plans though and gave me someone to live another day for – my son. Still, I lived each day as if tomorrow wouldn’t come and awoke unprepared for a new day. It’s only been recently that I’ve started to look to the future. I am trying to live a healthier lifestyle now so that I can enjoy a decent quality of life twenty years from now and I’m striving to be more responsible in my finances so that I have some security in the years to come.
I next applied this lens to my faith journey and asked myself, “If I could look at the end of the road I’m on, will I like what I see?” Do the choices I’ve already made lead to a dead end down the road or do they lead to my desired destination? I’ve been struggling for some time in my faith journey – Oh not that my belief is wavering. It’s not. Though it has become increasingly difficult to make time to study God’s Word. My prayer time has become mor
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Deer Lake Park (August 2009)
1 comment:
Hi Maureen,
I enjoyed reading your post. The part about your suffering with depression as a teen really hit home as I experienced that with one of my children and it has torn my family apart. To this day, I am waiting on God to heal us from it.
I too experience what you are talking about in your time with God. There are a billion distractions bidding us to pull away from Him in these last days.
I have a book I am reading that has blessed me and you may want to check it out. It is actually an anthology "Andrew Murray on Prayer" and a compilation of several books. I am underlining as I go and bought one for my sister for her birthday.
BTW, I know you from the Writers at Work and have a blog too:
http://inchristalone-byhismercy.blogspot.com
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